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Dec. 22nd, 2004 @ 11:12 pm
*snuggles close to the fire with Gram*

*quietly tells him a story about a man, a woman, a war, and a very special little boy*
Dec. 9th, 2004 @ 12:07 am
Current Mood: gigglygiggly
Winter in Rohan with the most important man in my life...Collapse )
Sep. 7th, 2004 @ 12:05 am
Current Mood: pleasedpleased
Current Music: to no end
In which it is discovered Helm is visiting and things end well, with a happy Hani and no arguing. It's almost a Christmas miracle. Almost.Collapse )
Aug. 31st, 2004 @ 12:18 am
Current Mood: calmcalm
Summer is passing so quickly. I've spent most of it lazing around the cottage, spending time with Gram, who is growing in leaps and bounds. I'm convinced he's going to take after Daddy's side after all and be another giant. Wulf stops by to spend time with Gram, too. I think I might actually be used to having him around. So far, so good on that front as well, since no one seems to know he's here. Yet.

Otherwise, things are rather quiet. Gorlim was here for a while, but I haven't seen or heard from him in weeks, so I can only assume he's returned to Gondor. I hope he's all right.
Jul. 21st, 2004 @ 09:22 pm
Current Mood: contentcontent
*putters around the cottage for a bit and then sits with Gram on the floor, re-enacting Folca's hunt for the boar of Everholt with his toys*

*after a while, when he starts showing signs of tiring out, stretches out on the sofa, Gram on her chest, and hums him to sleep*
happy with gram
Jul. 6th, 2004 @ 01:11 am I can badger him about it when he finally does remember.
Current Mood: nervousnervous
Hanild: *pulls Jade aside while Wulf is working on his form* What happened?

Jade: :hands over Gram and shrugs: We talked. He chose this, Hani, I didn't force him. And the memories are there, just locked away. He'll remember when he chooses, or when I help him

Hanild: *takes Gram and nuzzles his hair* And how is he supposed to choose to remember when he doesn't know what he's forgotten?

'I like you, Hani, and I'd like you to be happy, too'Collapse )
Jul. 2nd, 2004 @ 02:54 am
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Hanild: *makes her way to the couch and, seeing Wulf apparently asleep, kneels on the floor and begins gathering Gram's toys*

Wulf: *opens one eyes at the small sounds, blinks and focuses* Uh, hi?

Hanild: *turns his way and smiles* Hi. Gram's with Jade?

'You have the most beautiful hair'Collapse )
Jun. 23rd, 2004 @ 12:50 pm
Current Mood: restlessrestless
*calls for Jade to take her back to Mandos*
Jun. 14th, 2004 @ 09:59 pm
Current Mood: indifferentindifferent
Haleth, Firi, Faramir and I have arrived in Aldburg without incident. The main keep is practically ready to live in, but I've decided to stay in the cottage I had before. I'm not sure where Haleth will stay - or even if he'll stay. I suppose he might go back to Edoras to be with Daddy. There's a cottage next to mine Firi and Faramir can stay in until they decide to leave. For now, I'm going to unpack my things and make the cottage more homey. ...and try to ignore all Gram's toys so I don't miss him so much.
Jun. 8th, 2004 @ 11:21 pm
Current Mood: restlessrestless
In which Gorlim and Hani have an adventureCollapse )
Jun. 8th, 2004 @ 12:46 am
Current Mood: draineddrained
Hanild: *knocks on Haleth's door*

Haleth: *opens it* Hanild! *pulls her into a hug* Bema, where have you been??

Hanild: *hugs back* I had to go somewhere for a while. I'm sorry I didn't tell you.

Haleth: *holds her at arm's length and looks her over* Are you all right?

'I think your trust is a bit misplaced'Collapse )
Jun. 2nd, 2004 @ 11:35 pm Hmm.
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
Jade? If you don't mind, I was thinking maybe I should be getting back. I didn't exactly tell anyone I was leaving and I've been gone longer than I expected.
May. 23rd, 2004 @ 05:28 pm
Current Mood: worriedworried
In which Hani goes to retrieve Gram, and then doesn'tCollapse )

In which Hani finds JadeCollapse )
May. 22nd, 2004 @ 04:08 am
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Ok, I really can't take it anymore. If I don't do this now I will go insane...

May. 19th, 2004 @ 03:35 pm
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Is it possible to go insane from boredom? Because I think I'm there. The days are running into each other. I can't remember how long I've been here anymore, but it feels like forever.

I miss my baby.
Apr. 30th, 2004 @ 09:57 pm
Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
I think I've stopped angsting and have moved on to just not caring.


I'm not sure if that's an improvement or not.
Apr. 22nd, 2004 @ 10:15 pm
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
I had a good time out drinking with Brytta. He's so much fun and I don't spend enough time with him. It was also nice to be able to forget everything, even for a few hours. Of course, that's gone now and...yeah. Back to feeling useless and sad. ...I could always get drunk again, but I think that's probably not a good habit to get into. I hear the sun's back out now, too. Funny, I didn't even notice it wasn't dark outside anymore.
Apr. 19th, 2004 @ 09:15 pm
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
I want to go home. Actually, I just want to be anywhere but here. But I know I should wait for Gorlim to come back, and make sure he's all right before I do.

...I hope he doesn't take as long as Eomer did.
Apr. 16th, 2004 @ 12:44 pm >.
Current Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
That was...wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I blame it on the medication the healers have been giving me for my pain. *eyedart*

Hanild needs to go crawl into a hole and die of supreme embarassment now. Or at least spend the next few hours locked in my room telling myself how incredibly stupid I am. Thankfully, I'll be leaving soon. I'm sure I can avoid him until then...
Apr. 15th, 2004 @ 11:26 pm
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Note to everyone:

STOP DYING. Yes, that includes you.

For Eru's sake, don't I angst enough? And for those of you recently deceased, hurry up and get back here.


On a brighter note, I'm feeling much better, physically, anyway. Moving around is getting easier. I might go for a walk. ...no, not alone. *grumbles*
Apr. 12th, 2004 @ 10:02 pm
Current Mood: relievedrelieved
In which Hani and Firi patch things up and Hani sort of forms a planCollapse )
Apr. 9th, 2004 @ 05:24 pm
Current Mood: blankblank
Very tired. Haleth keeps annoying me, trying to get me to eat or somesuch. Why won't he just let me sleep? Theo and Firiel came to visit earlier, separately, but they didn't stay very long. Just as well. *sighs* I want Gorlim.
Apr. 4th, 2004 @ 05:15 pm
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
I've packed my things and I'll be moving to the inn with Haleth. I think it's best for everyone that way - Firiel, Theo should he come to see Hygd again. I really don't want to be here for that. I hope Gorlim understands. The inn's just down the street and I'll visit him regularly. He's, of course, welcome to come see me as well. I just...can't stay here.
Apr. 4th, 2004 @ 01:03 am
Current Mood: brooding
In which Hani and Gorlim comfort each otherCollapse )
Apr. 1st, 2004 @ 01:54 am
Current Mood: Haleth!
Current Music: HALETH!
Haleth: *finally having found some information on his sister, he makes his way to Firiel's cottage, knocking gently on the door*

Hanild: *trips slightly on the way to the door and dissolves into a fit of giggles* Heeeellllllloo?

Haleth: *through the door* Is there a Hanild or... what was the name... ah yes, Firiel, here?

I'm drunker than I thought I wasCollapse )
Mar. 30th, 2004 @ 01:49 am
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
In which Hani is again irritated and takes it out on FirielCollapse )

And then she checks on Gorlim and acts...completely normalCollapse )
Mar. 28th, 2004 @ 10:24 pm We're better off without him
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Hanild: *needing some air, she sneaks out of the cottage again and heads to the Quarters - the library to be more specific - convinced that Theo is right and the wraith will be no worry to her*

Artamir: *sitting in the library, shuffling through books, but not reading them, he thinks about his child and how he wishes to hold her again*

Hanild: *hears what sounds like someone moving around and freezes momentarily, then calls out softly* Is someone there?

Artamir: *looks up at the door, then approaches it, hand on his sword, coming into view and seeing her* o.o ...Hanild, yes?

I heard it was safe enough in here as long as I stayed away from the throne room.Collapse )
Mar. 26th, 2004 @ 08:59 pm
Current Mood: coldcold
*exits the cottage quietly and wanders around the perimeter, careful not to stray too far into the darkened streets*

*pulls the shawl tighter around her shoulders and hums softly to herself*
Mar. 26th, 2004 @ 12:02 am
Current Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
In which Theo and Hani are polite to each other, but that's about it.Collapse )
Mar. 23rd, 2004 @ 03:14 pm
Current Mood: nervousnervous
*has a good cry once she's sure she's out of earshot from Wulf and Gram, and then heads back to Jade's office, still sniffling*

Jade? I'm ready to go now.
Mar. 22nd, 2004 @ 01:54 pm
Current Mood: busybusy
*receives and reads Gorlim's letter*

*send a messenger to Edoras advising her father of Gondor's situation and that she will be heading to Minas Tirith immediately*

*hastily packs a bag, then starts to pack Gram's things, but stops and thinks for a minute*

I hate to have to do this again, but...

Mar. 21st, 2004 @ 03:28 pm
Current Mood: productiveproductive
The ride to Aldburg was very nice and uneventful. I'm currently getting things set up in one of the finished cottages. The main keep is ready to be lived in, but there's still a lot of construction going on and so many people going in and out that I thought it was just too noisy right now.

...and is it just me, or is the sky towards Gondor really, really dark? O.o
Mar. 19th, 2004 @ 09:55 pm
Current Mood: calmcalm
I've decided it's time I put the past behind me, once and for all. Daddy told me once that I should be grateful for what I have and he's right. We're all healthy and there's no reason I shouldn't be happy. The past is over, done with and can't be changed, so there's no point in brooding over it anymore.

To that end, I've also decided now is as good a time as any to move to Aldburg. A new city, new people, a new life and a new beginning. I've said my goodbyes to Daddy, with a promise I'll visit, and Gram and I are all packed and ready to go. Shouldn't take more than a day or so to get there, taking our time, and I'm actually really looking forward to the challenge of helping rebuild.
Mar. 17th, 2004 @ 10:04 pm
Current Mood: blankblank
*rocks Gram to sleep and continues to hold him after he's drifted off, longer than she normally would*

*eventually places him in his crib, careful not to wake him, and strokes his cheek gently with her fingers*

All for you. *whispers through tears* And it was worth it.

*sighs heavily and curls up in a chair next to the crib, staring out the window* It was worth it.
Feb. 17th, 2004 @ 05:10 pm
Current Mood: sadsad
Something feels off today. Several things, in fact. I can't quite put my finger on it, but all of a sudden, I feel very sad.

*sinks into a chair and cuddles Gram close*
Feb. 14th, 2004 @ 10:56 pm
Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
It's Irmotine's Day. I've spent it pretty much exactly like I did last year, alone and not in love, except for Gram. Of course, I didn't have Gram this time last year, which just makes me remember everything that's happened since then. And that makes me think it's probably a good thing I'm alone and not in love. Because I'm not. Not even a little. Really. Only person I need is Gram, and Daddy sometimes to bug, and that's just the way it's going to stay.
Feb. 13th, 2004 @ 01:17 am
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
In which Hani comforts (sort of) a traumatized SalmarCollapse )

Then she talks to Helm and actually gets her way for once - without a fight.Collapse )
Feb. 12th, 2004 @ 03:47 am
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
In which Hani asks Jade a surprising question and then goes home.Collapse )
Feb. 10th, 2004 @ 01:36 pm
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Daddy's very angry at me. Auntie Hild has no patience for me. Gram's been very fussy lately and I don't know what to do. I can't think of anywhere else to...*bites her bottom lip and smoothes the baby's hair as he sleeps*

*looks up and calls softly* Jade?
Feb. 6th, 2004 @ 01:02 am
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Actively trying to give me nervous breakdown can only succeed eventually.Collapse )

*rubs her temples* Head...ache...